Below are the 11 most recent journal entries recorded in Carissa's LiveJournal:

Monday, December 25th, 2006
2:42 pm	New journal... Hey, everyone. I won't be logging on to this journal anymore, because the layout thingy is dysfunctional and won't let me change it. So... I'll post one more time to tell my new screen name, and I'll also be posting to the coms I post on most, just to let everyone know that no one is stealing my fics. ^__^;; I'm going to re-add everyone on my list, too. So, please accept me. Don't want to lose contact because of this. Thanks so much. Carissa. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 28th, 2006
11:40 pm	So... I'm a bad friend. I'm a bitch. I ignore innocent people. I can't keep my mouth closed. Yeah. Right. Ya'see, the whole thing wasn't my fault. At all. My shirt, that I had JUST SHOWED HER was on my bed. Her things were in her bag. Then, she tells me to go down stairs to tell her dad she'll be right there, then I go back up, and POOF! My shirt is gone. I looked everywhere because, really, who wants to think their best friend stole their brand new shirt? So Leia says to me that she's known a lot of people and no one is too good not to do something wrong. That it's possible, (she actually said she DID it)very possible, that she stole it. So I calmly tell Katie when I go to get my shirt that I don't know what to think. That it LOOKS so bad on her, but that I don't want to think that my best friend would betray me. Later, I told her that I was ready to talk to her (I had been so busy thinking about what to do and how to handle it) if she was ready to listen. She was obviously not ready to listen. I PLAINLY told her that I would not argue. That I WOULD NOT stay talking to her if she would not listen to me. And she didn't listen. She argued. So I left. And I didn't answer the phone when she called. Not once. Because I was SO ANGRY that all I wanted to do was say that I was SO SORRY for accusing her of something like that. That, even if she had, I didn't care. Because I THOUGHT we were such good friends that she would at least TRY to see it from my point of view. And then came the question I asked myself... If others hadn't accused her of stealing, would I even have believed Leia? Ya'know, Katie thinks that someone told Michaela she was lending her stuff out. But know what? It was that, when she stayed with her at the lake, Desert said something about was Katie still going to let her borrow Moon Child? Katie had been borrowing Moon Child from Michaela for a while. But, to answer the question, no. I would not have thought so. I would have smiled when she handed my shirt back. And I would have hugged her. When I got in the car and Leia asked what she said, I said she asked for a hug. And Leia said, "She knows what she was doing. She just wanted to see if you were mad at her." As in she wanted to see if I REALLY thought that she had just mistakenly picked up my shirt. But I didn't believe that. Because, at some point, I wanted everything to be okay, and I wanted everything to fine between us. But it won't be. Because IF I DON'T ANSWER THE PHONE, I'm a bad friend. I'm an awful person. I HURT HER. But it was impossible that I cried. She found it unimaginable that I had gone home after telling her what it looked like and cried on my mom's shoulder. I MUST BE SOME KIND OF FUCKING MONSTER! Right? She made me the bad person again, today. When I talked to her. Because I was ready for it to be over. I was ready to be friends again. But she took every apology and shoved it down my throat. AND I'M THE ONE BEING INSENSITIVE. I'M THE ONE AT FAULT. SO FUCK YOU ALL. I agree, Katie. Fuck the world. I'm DONE trying to be friends with someone who OBVIOUSLY doesn't want to be friends in the first place. Goodnight, you fucking losers. Except for those who aren't losers. o.o (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, August 7th, 2006
1:27 am	Yes. So, Bunni went to the party. Got drunk. Danced on a table. And confessed to the girl she has a crush on that she has a crush on her. Which would have been fine if her crushes boyfriend wasn't there. But he was. And he wanted to kick Bunni's ass. Which makes me sad because, ya'know, Bunni's an awesome friend and people shouldn't dislike her. She's the best. ^__^ I lost the porn site I was on last night. Which sucks. Because it was awesome. XD Gay porn. Yaoi is fun. Yes. But Bunni wanted a link. And I couldn't give it to her. Because I don't have it. >___< So... Laura and I are talking again. ^_^ Which is good, for those who don't know. Can't say a few people will be extremely pleased with me but, yes. I'm... surprisingly... not tired. o.o XDD Michaela is sending me links to Yugioh yaoi. Yay-fun. *drools* (Comment on this)
Friday, August 4th, 2006
11:04 pm	Rant-ified Homicide Yeah. So I'm having a few difficulties with life. Not that I can't handle them. It's just that... it's hard... I had this really great friend, right? And we kept getting into fights. At first, I was all, best friends get into fights all of the time. So it's okay. But it kept happening. Every week, we were in an argument. Every single week. It got to the point where I didn't want to talk to her because I would say something wrong or she would. And we'd fight. So... A couple of arguments later, and I'm completely fed up. I don't want to be around someone that I can't be civil with, ya'know? Well, this last fight we had... It was the last straw for me. I was done. Didn't care what anyone thought or said to me. I was just... done. Which wouldn't be so bad... but someone (I name no names) has told me that she's holding this huge grudge against me and hates my guts. But I'm being the bigger person. I said, "Okay. I'm not going to be a bitch in this situation. We aren't going to be friends but I'm not going to talk about her behind her back. Not like she's doing to me." I don't care who I'm talking to, I don't talk about people like that. I don't like it. And I don't like it when other people do. I clam up and get quiet. And usually, I'll just give short answers. Like, "Yeah." and "I know." Because, hey, for all I know, if someone's willing to talk about someone behind their back, what qualms would they have with talking about me...? None. Which is why I don't like it. So, yes. I'm without one friend. But... frankly... I'm kind of okay with it... Every friendship is doomed to end at some point. So this one ended before anyone seriously got hurt. What's the harm in that? On to other topics, Cristina asked me if I felt guilty about anything I've done recently. And, of course, I don't. Because I haven't done anything wrong. Which made me think, why would she even ask? Which also reminded me, she's been talking to my boyfriend lately. Not that I care. I know Cristina better than anyone and I know she would -never- even -think- about hurting me. So, I don't mind. But it's the fact that... He may have told her to ask me. Which would piss me off so much. If you can't talk to me... What's the point in having a relationship? He was over the other day. And he goes, "Guess what." Naturally, I asked, "What?" And he says, "I love you." And I'm all, "Well, you better." And he thinks I'm trying to say, in some amazing female language that I don't feel the same. And he says, "You know, if you don't feel the same, don't lie to yourself. You don't have to say it back to me." So I go, "Okay." It isn't that I don't. It's just the fact that I don't need to be reassured of someone's feelings for me every fifteen minutes. I want to know that, if we should break up, I can rely on myself. And not need to constantly hear that someone loves me. I mean, great. Lovely. Maybe I love you, too. But I don't feel the need to have to say it all of the time. Goodbye, sure. I love you. But not, hey, there's a blank in the conversation. I love you. That makes it kind of cheap, ya'know? I know I'm only in high school and I'm still a kid myself but I don't want to be treated like a little girl. >____< I don't know. I'm not even sure if I'm actually mad about this. I'm just pissed off all together. But I'm really excited at the moment for Bunni. ^_^ She's going to a birthday party of a girl she has a crush on and I'm so excited for her... I hope everything works out for her, I really, really do. Love ya, Bunni! And to anyone who actually reads this bull. Thanks. It means a lot. ^_^ (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, July 13th, 2006
11:26 pm	o.o;; Yeah. So this will be my first actual entry. Damn. That sucks. Means I have something to post about. Which is usually bad. But, whoo! Know what? Nothing bad. Not in the least. Ha. Well, anyway, I'm so tired. And I don't understand why. Maybe because I know I want to rest up because last time I stayed with Michaela, we didn't sleep much. XDD And I'm going over there tomorrow. I'm kinda excited because she's cool and I have extreme cabin fever. Roxie called me today. Which isn't exactly bad. But it isn't great either. Because all she wants to talk about when she calls is how no one else is home. Which hurts me a little, ya'know? I mean, I know we were never all that great of friends but does she only have to call me when there's no one else to talk to? Seriously, its almost like saying, "Hey. I called everyone in my phone book and you were the only one left. So I decided to give you a ring. I hope you don't mind that you're last on my list and I'm not afraid to just flat out tell you." And that hurts. Because its practically what was going down. Roxie's cool, though. We wrote a poem over the phone. It was corny and stupid but it was kind of fun. We had a hard time, though because she's, like, half deaf and couldn't always hear my reply and I'd say it again. And, when someone tells me something good over the phone, I'll say, "I was clapping, in case you couldn't hear." And I immediately felt bad when I said that to her. because she got really quiet. And I tried to laugh it off. I'm such a dumb ass sometimes. Well, really, that's all I have for today. I miss Bunni. 8___8 She hasn't been on in forever. But, yeah. That's it. Damn. Really had something going. Oh, well. Heiwa! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, May 20th, 2006
8:03 pm	Long Island Iced Tea (5) Title: Long Island Iced Tea Chapters: 5/? Author: toki_ga_owareba Genre: Fluff, lemon in later chapters Ratings: PG-13 Pairings/Characters: DiexShinya, KaoruxToshiya Disclaimer: No owning... 8.8 Synopsis: "Well... Bye..." He was moving the phone from his ear and I panicked. "Wait! Die!" When he answered with a 'huh' he sounded quite confused. I took a deep breath. "I..." I looked to the television. A new episode had come on. It was the one where Carrie meets Burger. She was telling her friends about the 'spark' she got with him that she rarely had with anyone and... I realized... As odd as it may sound... Die was my Burger. "I love you, too." Comments: WHOO! Number five! I've written up to chapter... seven or eight... I just have to type them. >.< 1 2 3 4 ( The silence was killing me... ) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 3rd, 2006
4:04 pm	Title: Long Island Iced Tea Author: toki_ga_owareba Chapters: 1/? Genre: Well... fluff in later chapters... angst... yada, yada Rating: Don't know yet Band: Dir en grey Pairings: DiexShinya Disclaimer: I own nothing and no one except for the people in the bar. Comments: My only comment is that... You should comment. XP Invisible. Ugly and invisible. Maybe it's a good thing I'm so invisible because, otherwise, someone could see how ugly I really am. How worthless. Yes. I'm invisble. Maybe not in the sense that no one can see me... but that no one will... Everyone passes me by like I'm not even there and, frankly, I like it that way. I like not having to care how I look. I like being alone. Which is why having him sitting next to me got completely under my skin. Of course, I could think of a million reasons why he would sit there. For one, the bar was packed. For another, there was a very attractive woman sitting two chairs down from me. Honestly, I see no reason why he’d turn to me instead of her... But he did. With a cigarette in one hand and a beer in the other, he turned to me and smiled. “Hi.” He was talking to me. To me. I turned away. I’m invisible. He can’t see me. He doesn’t want to see me. But his voice got louder. “Are you deaf?” This made me look up. I shook my head. “I said ‘hi.’” “Hi.” My voice was weak. He smiled. Why was he smiling? Doesn’t he know I’m invisible? “My name is Daisuke.” He grinned at me. Like his name should mean something to me. Like I was supposed to care. Then he frowned. “Don’t you have a name?” My hands started shaking. “Shinya.” I replied nervously. More than anything, I wanted to stand and walked away... But... something about him made me stay put. I tucked my hair behind my ears. “Come here often, Shinya?” He asked, placing the cigarette between his lips. I shook my head. I was only there because I couldn’t sleep. I was tired of thinking. Tired of being worthless. “Have a girlfriend?” He inquired. It was none of his business, really. But was I going to hell him that? “No.” “Why not?” He asked, honestly looking confused. I’m invisible. “I’m not exactly the type of guy women lust after...” I answered quietly, my fingers gripping my long island iced tea as hard as I could without breaking the glass. I didn’t really like long island iced tea. I just remember seeing a lot of people drinking them on Sex and the City. Daisuke shook his head. “Are you serious?” He laughed. “I’m... very serious...” I nodded my head. “Well... I don’t see why no one would want you.” He licked his lips. I looked down at myself. Ugly. Worthless. Invisible. That’s why. “Why are you telling me this?” I turned to him. “Because I think you’re cute.” He stated plainly. Like I should have expected it. Like it happened to me all of the time. I’m not cute. I’m ugly. Ugly and invisible. “Well, I’m not gay.” “Have you ever dated a guy?” “No.” “Then how do you know?” He was still smiling. Like all of this was funny. “I...” I stood up and laid the money down. “It’s just something you know.” I made my way to the front of the bar. I liked it better when I was invisible. Before I even made it to the door, Daisuke grabbed my arm. “How are you supposed to know if you’ve never had a man?” He asked as I turned around. Everyone was looking. “I’m not gay!” I pulled out of his grasp and stormed out of the door. It wasn’t too long before his hand was around my arm again. He pulled me back. Into him. I placed my hand over his chest so we wouldn’t collide. He bent down. Not too far. He wasn’t much taller than me. Our lips met. His eyes were closed and, for some strange reason, unbeknownst to mankind, my eyes closed, too. For those five seconds, I wasn’t ugly. I wasn’t worthless. I wasn’t invisible. He pulled away, smiling, and I’ looked up at him. I pushed him away. “I’m not gay.” I said, barely above a whisper, before I tuned and headed towards my apartment. I’m not gay...Or, at least, I wasn’t. (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 29th, 2006
11:23 am	Title: His Chapters: oneshot Author: toki_ga_owareba Genre: fluff Disclaimer: *sighs* Sadly, I am not an owner of the beautiful Dir en grey. 8.8 And none of this happened. Rating: PG Pairings: KaoxTotchi Synopsis: It was raining that night. I remember it as if it were yesterday. The swift knock on the door. Racing to answer it. Seeing him standing there, bags in hand. I remember his face; that soft pained expression was hard to forget. His eyebrows furrowing just a bit and a small, sad smile playing across his face. She kicked him out. Comments: No comments... ( She never deserved him, anyway... ) (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, April 15th, 2006
7:27 pm	Title: Truth, Dare or Promise to Repeat Chapters: 2/? Author: toki_ga_owareba Genre: Fluff/angst/hawt mahn seckz Ratings: PG-13 (sure to change in later chapters) Pairings/Characters: DieXShinya, KaoxTotchi Synopsis: Shinya, Toshiya, Daisuke, and Kaoru are stuck in a house together for two days and two nights. There is no escaping unless they want to drown in rain (which I'm sure none of them would find much amusing). Will Die and Shinya finally come to their senses and tell each other how they feel or will their new living arrangments take a toll on their already broken relationship? Comments: Poor, poor Kyo... He just doesn't seem to be in either chapters, does he? *tsk, tsk* Oh, well... He might call... Unno yet. Daisuke swallowed hard. He had to be dreaming... Or Kaoru and Toshiya were playing some heartless joke on him. Despite the accusations in his head, he wetted his lips and leaned foreward, closing his eyes. After a moment of nothing happening, he opened them and saw the look of horror on Shinya's face as he stared out the window. "Oh. My. God." He gasped. Daisuke turned his head to see what was so awful. It was white. Die knew it wasn't cold enough to snow. "How in the hell...?" "What is that?" Toshiya asked, an amazed look over his face. "Rain." Was Kaoru's slow answer. He grabbed the remote and flipped the TV on. '-arning has been released. Stay in your homes! If you leave there is high risk of death.' "How long...?" Shinya asked the TV. 'It has just been reported by our Super Dopler Weather Watcher that the longest the rain will last is two days and two nights. Now, on to better news with-' Kaoru hit the power button. "But... but... I don't want to be stuck in a house with you weirdos." Die smiled, trying to make the best of the situation. Shinya glared at him. "Sorry..." He looked down. ~I'm seein red Don't think you'll have to see my face again don't have much time for sympathy Cuz it never happened to me ~ Shinya stood up and ran his fingers through his hair. He looked almost as if he were going to cry. Die, whom was still sitting on the couch, grabbed Shinya's hand. "What's wrong...?" "I left Miyu at home..." Shinya's eyes filled with tears. "Poor Miyu... Maybe I should call..." "And just who are you expecting to answer the phone? The abomidable snow man...?" Die bit his lip. He didn't mean to always say things to hurt Shinya. "I'm sorry." "Yeah... well... so am I." Shinya pulled his hand away from Die and stormed off into one of the many rooms of the house. Die slammed his fist into the arm of the couch. "God, damn it!" He said loudly. "You see?" He stood and looked at Kaoru and Toshiya. "Do you see why I can't tell him?" "Because you're mean?" Kaoru asked. "Exactly!" Die let his hands fall to his sides. "And he's... he's too... perfect..." He bit his lip again. He shook his head. "Thanks for trying." He said softly and sat back down. "Look, Die." Toshiya sat beside him. "If you love Shinya, you have to tell him. You can't just spend everyday watching him like you've been doing. If you want to hold him, tell him. If you want to be with him, tell him. If you love him... Tell him..." "It isn't that easy, Toshiya!" Die said harshly. "Don't you think I've been trying?" ~You're feelin blue now I think you bit off more than you could chew And now it's time to make a choice And all I wanna hear is your... ~ "You aren't trying hard enough." Kaoru stated. "Get your ass in there and tell that poor man how you feel!" He pointed towards the door. "I... I can't..." "And why is that?" "Because... there's no way in hell... he could love someone as mean as me..." Die said. He put his face in his hands. "Well, he does. So, apparently, there is a way in hell. Go talk to him." Toshiya said. He was starting to get angry and Die could tell. So he stood and made his way to the door, knocking lightly on it. "What?" Shinya said with out opening the door. "Shin-chan...? Can I come in?" Die asked quietly. "No. You can't." Shinya answered. Despite his answer, Die pushed open the door and closed it behind him. "I thought I sa-" "I heard you." Die said. He locked the door. "I need to talk to you." "Well, I don't want to talk to you." ~So follow the leader down And swallow your pride and drown When there's no place left to go Maybe thats when you will know ~ "You have no choice." He said and moved closer to Shinya. "Look, I'm sorry I hurt your feelings." "You're always 'sorry', aren't you?" Shinya crosses his arms and turned around. Die walked the rest of the distance between he and Shinya and put a hand over Shinya's shoulder. "Shinya... please... I'm trying..." Die looked down when Shinya turned to face him. He had a disgusted look on his face. "Trying to what?" Shinya said sharply. He knew he was hurting Die but it was about time that pain was inflicted on someone other than himself. "I'm trying to stop being mean." He answered quietly. "Why would you...?" "Because... because..." Die looked up at Shinya. "I don't like seeing you sad." Shinya's eyes widened. He was expecting a 'because Kaoru said he'd kick my ass if I wasn't nicer'. "And I don't like being the one who makes you feel that way." Shinya almost glared at him. "So why do it?" "Because I don't know how to tell you..." "Tell me what?" Shinya bit his lip. Die shook his head and turned around, walking towards the door. "Nevermind." Shinya raced after him and turned him back around by yanking his sleeve. His eyes were filled with tears that he wasn't even aware were there. "Die... please..." Without another word, Die leaned towards Shinya, covering his lips with his own. He pulled away after a second. "I'm sorry, Shinya..." He turned back to the door and clicked the lock. "Die..." Before opening the door, Die waited. When he got no reply, he decided to take the chance. "I... I love you..." Shinya covered his mouth with his hands and gasped. That phrase was what he least expected to come out of Die's mouth. ~And foolish lies well can't you see I tried to compromise Cuz what you say ain't always true And I can see the tears in your eyes ~ There was a short pause before Die opened the door and ran to a bathroom. Shinya put his back to the door and slid down it. Why didn't he say it back...? Die banged his head against the door, trying to stop himself from crying. He did it. He did what they told him to do and they were wrong. Die leaned against the door, sliding against it. "What the fuck am I doing...?" He asked him self, sobbing into his palms. ~And what you said now Can't stop the words from running through my head And what I do to get through to you But you'd only do it again ~ There was a short knock on the bathroom door and Die's head snapped up. "Die...?" Kaoru's voice said. He sighed. He wasn't sure that he wanted it to be Shinya. He stood and pulled the door open. "What happened?" "I did it." He smiled through tears. "I told him that I love him and... and..." "What?" "He just stood there, staring at me. He didn't say anything. He didn't do anything." He slammed his palms on to the counter of the sink. "You told me to tell him." He rolled his eyes. "But, hey, what was I expecting? Some big... revelation. I told you guys he didn't feel the same..." ~So follow the leader down And swallow your pride and drown When there's no place left to go Maybe that's when you will know~ Kaoru's jaw dropped. "But... he said... he told us he wanted to tell you how he felt..." "Well, apparently, you didn't decipher that by 'what he felt' he meant the opposite of what I feel. I made a complete fool of myself." He shook his head. "I can't believe I'm stuck here for two days..." He sighed. Kaoru was speechless. "Look... Can I use one of your rooms...? I need to think..." Kaoru nodded and Die pushed past him, walked slowly up the set of stairs and practically slammed a door shut. He threw himself on the unoccuplied bed. ~Well I confess, I don't know what to make from all this mess Don't have much time for sympathy But it never happened to me ~ Die closed his eyes, wishing that, if he had to cry this much he'd just go ahead and drown in his tears. After a few minutes, he was fast asleep, his mind off of the present for a while. There was a light knock on the door that he didn't hear. Shinya entered the quiet room, his eyes landing on the sleeping Die. ~You're Feelin down, now I don't know where I'll be when you come around And now it's time to make a choice~ Shinya bit his lip and closed the door as quietly as he could. He leaned against it with his forhead and whispered so softly he could hardly hear himself... ~And all I wanna hear is your voice...~ "I love you, too, Daisuke..." -------------------- WHOO! Ending here. *dances* Song fic! YAY! I love this... It's all... sad and stuff... and... *le gasp* WHEN WILL THE MADNESS STOP?! What's going to happen between Die and Shinya?! How is Miyu doing?! And, more importantly, will they have enough beer to last two days and two nights?! Read the next chapter to find out! Current Mood: amused (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, April 7th, 2006
1:12 am	Truth, Dare, or Promise to Repeat Title: Truth, Dare or Promise to Repeat Chapters: 1/? Author: toki_ga_owareba Genre: Don't know yet. Ratings:...Unno yet... Pairings/Characters:DieXShinya, KaoxTotchi Synopsis: Comments:A/U maybe... Kyo won't be in this chapter... No need for him... He may be in later chapters, however. The air was cold and the jacket covering Shinya's arms wasn't really helping. He sighed and turned towards the glass door that separated him and the inside of the house. Nothing was going to help the couple inside. Shinya looked at the ground and kicked a stone, then adverted his attention to the man with a cigarette planted between his lips. "You're going to die." Shinya said softly, turing away from the smoke. "Yeah. And someday, you will to." Die smirked, his bright red hair falling in his eyes. "You really shouldn't smoke." "And you shouldn't wear women's clothing. Let me have my cigarettes and I won't say a thing about your dresses." He chuckled slightly, dropping the fag to the ground and stepping on it. "Happy now?" He took in a deep breath as he watched Shinya shrug. Truth be told, he didn't mind the way Shinya dressed. "When can we go in?" Shinya whined and turned towards Die. "Whenever those two stop arguing." He looked to the glass door and saw Kaoru pointing towards Toshiya. He could almost hear him yelling something along the lines of 'tramp.' But he wasn't sure. "But it's so cold." Die promptly wrapped his arms around Shinya, causing him to gasp. "Die..." Die pulled away quickly. "Sorry... you said you were cold." He bit his lip. He remembered how he told himself before he came that tonight would be the night he told Shinya how he felt. Time was slipping by and he knew that it would only be another wasted night. He could never find the right moment to say it. Suddenly, the glass door opened and a smiling Kaoru and Toshiya greeted them. "Hey. Ready to come back in?" Die laughed and shook his head. He stepped in and waited for the rest to follow before he walked into their living room. After they sat there for a moment, Kaoru coughed. "Die... will you help me in the kitchen?" "Why would I do that?" "So we can let Toshiya and Shinya..." He smiled. "Relax a little bit." He pleaded with his eyes to Die. Die nodded and stood. After they were in the kitchen, Die pushed Kaoru lightly. "Why did I come in here, really?" "I want to help you." "Help me what?" "Tell Shinya." Die's eyes widened and he looked towards the counter. "I have nothing to tell him." Kaoru rolled his eyes at Daisuke. "So... you'll spill your guts to Toshiya but you can't tell me?" Die pounded his hand against the counter. He glared daggers at Toshiya whom was talking to Shinya and not paying Die much mind. "I'll kill him." "Come on, Die... You've got to tell him eventually... Don't you see how he looks at you...?" "He looks at me like I torment him every other second." "He looks at you like he loves you." "Then why, when I look at him, does he always look away?" "Because he doesn't want you to see." Kaoru stated firmly, pulling a few bottles of beer from the refrigerator. Die grabbed for one but Kaoru pulled it away. "No. You're going to stay sober." Die rolled his eyes. "Okay, genius, how am I going to tell him?" "We're going to play truth or dare." "Come on," Die laughed. "That's the game fourteen year old girls play at sleep overs." "Then you had damned well pretend you're a fourteen year old girl." Kaoru said and walked out of the kitchen and back into the living room. He offered a beer to Shinya, whom declined. Toshiya, however, gladly accepted it. "Okay, bitches. The name of the game is Truth or Dare." He slid Die a small smile. "I'll kill you..." He said under his breath. "What was that, Die?" Kaoru grinned evilly. Die just smiled and shook his head. "Who wants to go first?" Kaoru looked around the group. Toshiya raised his hand. "Okay... Shinya... Truth, dare, double dare, promise to repeat?" Shinya's eyes widened. "...Truth..." "Hm... have you ever... been in love?" Shinya was silent for a moment. "Yes... I have..." He replied. "Now, it's Shinya's turn!" Kaoru clapped his hands together, delighted. "Die. Truth, dare, double dare, promise to repeat?" "Dare." He smirked. "I dare you..." Shinya looked around, his eyes landing on Toshiya. Toshiya told him he'd help him tell Die tonight how he felt. Toshiya nodded. "to kiss..." Die's eyes darted all around. "Me." That's where I end for now... >> << >> << Current Mood: complacent Current Music: Dir en grey = Cage (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 16th, 2006
10:55 pm	The Good Boys, the Bad Boys, and the Boys That Wear Make-up A Dir en grey fanfiction by Rissa Word had spread around the club that he would be performing. Even though no one knew for sure, girls lined up along the stage, hoping to get a closer look at the masterpiece. What everyone was calling the “next big thing”. No one knew much who he was. But, still... they all adored him Die stood backstage, smirking. He knew his magical finger would, once again, wow them all. He knew the girls would scream and the guys would roll their eyes, thinking, “What’s so amazing about him anyway?” But they saw. They saw the look in his eyes with every chord that was struck. They would see his face again, come Monday, giving him a second look as they pass him in the hall. They’d pass it off, however, as a mere coincidence that the two should look exactly alike. There’s no way someone so amazing could be that... normal. Die picked up his guitar and trailed on to the stage, allowing his bangs to fall in front of his eyes. He stood in front of the mic. Nothing was needed to be said. Not a single soul in the audience spoke. An introduction was not needed. His fingers just started moving along the stings as he strummed. The magic had started. -------------------- Kyo was in no rush to get home. He knew for a fact his mother wouldn’t be home until after he’d leave for school the next morning. What’s the use in going home to an empty house? But the streets at night were just as frightening. Although he was sure no one was in the alley, Kyo couldn’t help but get the feeling someone was watching him. “I-is anyone there?” He asked the silence, hoping to God he wouldn’t receive an answer. To his great dismay, one came. “Give me your wallet!” A tall figure stepped out from behind a garbage can. Kyo whimpered. “I-I d-don’t have anything on me...” The tall figure punches a fist into the brick wall beside him. “Can’t pay in cash, you’ll pay in blood!” He threatened as he jerked back his arm for what looked to be a powerful throw. “No!” -------------------- Though Die walked home every night, he never remembered it being so dark. He began to walk faster. Even tough guys were allowed to be afraid sometimes. Die sighed. He could see his apartment complex. Before he could even begin to feel relief, he heard a scream. “No!” It sounded as if it were close. Rushing, Die ran down the sidewalk, sticking his head into every alley way until he reached the right one. A man was bent over a lump of flesh. Die creped up behind the man and pulled him to the ground. He pounded his fists into his face until he was barely able to distinguish if this monster was human. When Die reckoned the man unconscious, he inspected the other body. Turning it over to see its face, Die gasped. He recognized him from school. ------------------- Kyo awoke some hours later in a room he didn’t recognize. He wondered to himself if his mugger dragged him back to his home. Suddenly, the door began to open. Kyo quickly shut his eyes. Die entered the room with a bowl of water and a sponge. He leaned over Kyo, dipping the sponge in the bowl. Die laid the sponge over Kyo’s forehead, letting the cool water drip into his hair. Relaxing, Kyo unwillingly grabbed the hand that held the sponge in place. His eyes slowly opened and he jumped. “Who are you?” Kyo demanded, trying his hardest to sit up. Die put a hand on his shoulder, forcing him to stay down. “I’m the one who found you.” Was Die’s simple answer. No need to give more information. He’d be gone in the morning. Kyo looked towards his hands. “Where are we?” He closed his eyes again as Die replaced the sponge. The water in the bowl now had a reddish tint to i. “My apartment.” Die answered. Kyo opened his eyes again. “Thank you.” He managed before he once again drifted into sleep. -------------------- Light peeked through the closed blinds. Kyo yawned and stretched, sitting up in the bed. He stood and quietly made his way to the door. Daisuke was asleep on the couch in the living room which was also the kitchen... and the den... Kyo tip toed past him, trying hard not to wake him. He had to empty his bladder before he exploded. On his way back, Kyo tried his hardest not to trip over the rug unsuccessfully. He flew through the air, landing safely on Die. Well... for the most part. “What the fuck do you think you’re doing?!” Die bellowed from under Kyo. “I-I’m sorry...” Kyo mumbled, jumping off of him. Die kept his eyes shit for a moment. “I’m sorry.” Kyo heard Die mumbled something of muggers and saving lives and stupid ungrateful kids. “Hey.” “Yeah?” Kyo asked. “Do you have a house?” Die questioned, sitting up and rubbing his eyes. Kyo nodded. “Good. I’ll drive you home.” In between yawns, the murmured, “Get you out of my hair.” “Domo arigato-” He paused. “Just... call me Die.” He said as Kyo watched him pull a white undershirt over his head. “Die...” Kyo continued watching Die intently. “Look, kid... School starts in about an hour. Would you mind going to get your shoes on?” Die sounded irritated. Kyo rushed back into the room where he assumed his shoes were. Only seconds later, Kyo ran back out, one show on the wrong foot and the other still in his hand. For the first time since Kyo had been there, Die smiled. “Ready?” He asked, grabbing his keys. Kyo nodded and they headed out of the door. (1 Comment |Comment on this)